In Your Own Words... Thoughts on OM, yoga, the OM challenge, and life from your fellow OMmies...
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"The OM is so community oriented, fun, and loving... --- Alicia
"why i love om or: dispatch from the heart of darkness" 14.02.2006 I could only find myself here on valentine’s day if I believed. I ’d have to believe, wouldn’t I, to be here, now, watching the orange sun start its daily descent over this beautiful and broken town along the banks of the river congo. I used to believe, I really did. but after a few years of this business of “doing good in the world” and of “loving the world”, I ’m not so sure I do anymore. I wish I could say I did. But how much suffering do you have to see, smell, taste, let writhe then shrivel and decay until it lies- still and putrid- in the palm of your hand? How much before faith runs out and you’re left standing there, powerless and alone and heartbroken by the numbing shrapnel of this, our human condition. So head over heals I ’m falling, stumbling blindly towards the refuge of cynicism that is the shining armour in this business of ours where its just so much easier to shrug it all off as what we’ve done for millennia and will continue to do under the varying guises of politics or religion or resources or whatever those guys up there come up with next. in the meantime, someone has to do it, and anyway in this state of inertia at least the benefits are good and we have a holiday to nairobi (or dubai) every now and then. “Little girl, don’t let life go hardening your heart” pema told me some time ago on page three but I had to put the book down because it hurt too much to read any further. and then, much later, there I was, in Earth [just three weeks ago(!), still glowing with the amazement of Joe (and Frank too) having remembered my name after all these years and oceans and continents and heartbreak and hardening]. There I was, contorted and absorbed when- just beyond my nose/right shoulder/left knee/anjali mudra (with every other part of me shaking, taut, ready to topple)- the words came suddenly into focus: “may all beings be free from suffering...” Written so simply, so close I could see the pencil stencilling. Too much for me; I had to close my eyes. But there too was my own hideous and ugly darkness, and I couldn’t stop the searing painful rush flowing straight to my heart. And then class was over and I went home to pack and then I got back on that plane then another plane then another smaller and rather decrepit ex-soviet plane and now here I am, Valentine’s day 2006, without even the remotest possibility of finding blueberries or obscure movies or a beautiful soul to share all this endless love of mine with. But I’m here, so surely I believe. I must. Claudia Seymour Kisangani, DRC |
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